Friday, October 26, 2012

Fill in the Blank Friday

1. My favorite feeling in all the world is the content feeling I get after spending a day having fun and making memories with Hubby and The Mayor.

2. My favorite smell is the Mayor after his bath or shower. I can't stop hugging him.

3. My favorite taste is the first sip of morning coffee.

4. The most beautiful thing I've ever seen was the view of the ocean on my wedding day! I remember feeling so happy and everything just looked so amazing.

5. The best sound ever is M&M's being poured into a Waterford Crystal bowl. Random, yes...but the sound is so glorious that I have a beautiful bowl that I call the M&M bowl.

6. A smell that reminds me of my childhood is the smell of the beach...sand, ocean and sunscreen.

7. My favorite of all the senses is sight for sure...I love all the beauty out there to appreciate.

I am so looking forward to this weekend; and I'm sure that I will sit down at the end of it and get that feeling of being content - and I'll count my blessings.


Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Fall Wish List!

Sweaters and boots are out!  It's time to wear the "heavier" scarves (since I seem to wear them all year round).  And, there is a certain crispness in the air that comes with this amazing time of the year.  Let's face it, it's not blazing hot, but it's not yet too cold, and I still have that optimism that comes from knowing that the holidays are coming...but they are not in my face scary yet.

Needless to say, I was super excited when I saw the Savour the Season series on a blog that I really, really enjoy! First off, the title of the blog is amazing - The Complete Guide to Imperfect Homemaking, but secondly, the tips, ideas, suggestions are actually do-able (Woo hoo!).  Behold, Day 2 of the Savour the Season series was about making a Fall Wish List.  That is exactly what I needed this week.  So thanks!

My Fall Wish List

Three Things to Eat/Bake:
My amazing beef stew
An Apple Crisp
Pumpkin Bread

Three Pictures to Take:
The Mayor with Pumpkins at the Pumpkin Patch
A picture in the mountains with the Leaves Changing
A family picture for our Holiday Card (that's not taken the day before I order the cards!)

Three People to See:
A weekend with our friends in the Springs
A Fall Pot Luck
A craft day with my girlfriends

Three Places to Go:
The pumpkin patch
Somewhere in the mountains (to get that picture, above)
Out for fondue with My Hubby

I am already well on my way.  I have picked the date for the Fall Potluck, booked our weekend with our friends in the Springs.  So far, so fun!


Friday, October 12, 2012

Mommy Molars and Giving Strength

A child in my community is gone.

What started out as a local missing child, with a community that rallied to try to bring her home; turned into a case that captured attention across the nation. Today, we learned that all the hope and prayers were not going to bring her home.

In my heart, I knew that when a body was found on Wednesday that it was not going to end the way we all had hoped. I, like many others, held onto the hope of an abandoned station wagon thousands of miles away. Then that hope faded and we were back to the feelings of sadness as we waited for a proper identification.


Five and a half years ago I became a mom. They handed me this beautiful little child and with all my heart I knew that I was going to love, care for and protect this tiny little being at any cost.  It was one of the most natural and fulfilling feelings I have ever felt.  However, the events of this week affected me in a way that was so new, so different, so raw.

This afternoon the police gave the news that I knew was coming, but when I heard the actual words, I could only put my face in my hands and sob - and I couldn't get the tears to stop, and I couldn't stop asking myself how I was going to protect my child in a world where someone would dispose of a child in such a matter...much less, in my own community where there is a predator on the loose.  How do you get a five year old to understand that their little tiny karate chop is not going to be enough, and they have to run, and scream and yell in a stranger danger situation?  How do you teach a candy loving, puppy loving, kitty loving,  child that an adult, asking if you want ______, may be a murderer trying to lure them away? How do you know they understand?


At some point, while going through the motions that got me from work to home, with a grocery store stop in between, I started thinking about teeth.  Not too surprising considering that The Mayor lost his first tooth yesterday, and the tooth fairy left him some loot last night, but what I kept thinking about was when toddlers get their molars.  Oh, that developmental milestone where they are in agony - but in the end, a whole world of new foods and textures greets them.  The pain subsides and they move along to the next milestone.  And then, there was a connection to how I was feeling.

Today, I got my mommy molars.  The pain is subsiding, and now, whats in front of me is different.  What's in front of a lot of moms who have been touched by Jessica Ridgeway, is different. I am not naive, and I know that the world around us is not perfect; but a little piece of the evil "out there" has gotten in.  It's gotten in to our community, and I don't know that it will ever feel the same as it did a mere eight days ago. I'm assuming that the grieving moms like me will figure it out - the same way that other moms, who have felt this way, who have been touched this way, have figured it out before.  Life in Westminster will return to normal...or whatever the new normal is going to be.


We have a sleepover guest tonight, the daughter of one of my very best friends.  Well Hubby and I enjoyed our evening with The Mayor and Ms. B. and probably spoiled them a little more then we should have.  Not for them, I think it was for us.  And, when I tucked them into bed I kissed and hugged them each an extra few times.

While I was cleaning up from dinner though, there went the mind again.  Of course as soon as I was alone my mind was racing and thoughts of the day, of the week, came back.  My mind was going to thoughts of Jessica's mom - how is she getting out of bed? how is she breathing? how is she going to get through what's ahead of her? I started thinking about how much hurt I felt when I heard the news - pain in my soul - that scared me and even confused me because it was not like anything I had felt before. Then I couldn't stop thinking about Jessica's Mom.

Now, anyone who knows me can tell you that I am an advocate for moms taking care of one another, for moms helping and supporting one another. I often say that my own girlfriends are as important as the air that I breathe.  Well maybe there's something more to that.  Maybe, our pain, the pain felt by many, many other moms tonight, is a way for Jessica's mom to have a tiny bit of strength.  The ultimate way for moms to take care of one another; to subconsciously channel our will to the one who needs it the most.  It's just a thought, but I would unselfishly give her more of my strength if I could.

Tonight, I am sending strength to Sarah Ridgeway, a mom who needs it the most. My prayers go out to all of Jessica's family, friends and loved ones.

RIP Little Angel Jessica, RIP.

Be kind and hold your loved ones close!

Friday, October 5, 2012

Fill in the Blank Friday!

The days have been long, and the nights have not been long enough, so I've been feeling super tired. More tired then normal...which says a lot. There are so many things that I miss lately.  Things like eating healthy, working out (I was doing so great with my running!) and of course blogging.  I've even been missing reading all my favorite blogs.

This weekend hubby is off fishing, so I'm going to do some catching up...some relaxing...and getting ready for the week ahead.  To start this off on the right foot, I'm throwing down a Fill in the Blank Friday to get me in the mood.  Plus, I love the topic...Lasts!

1.The last thing I ate was pizza with The Mayor. It was his choice - even though we already had pizza one day this week.  Oh well!

2.The last time I went to the beach was in June; and it already seems like too long ago.

3.My last vacation was coincidentally in June.  I was able to take the Mayor and go back to NJ to visit the family and be there for my niece's graduation.

4.The last place I drove was on the afternoon round.  From work, to The Mayor's school, to the gas station and home. It felt like I was in the car forever.

5.The last song I listened to was The A Team by Ed Sheeran.

6.The last thing I watched on TV was five minutes of the movie Overboard with Goldie Hawn.  That movie is just hysterical.  However, the last thing I officially watched was The Real Housewives of New York on my DVR. Might I add that some of them are just nuts!

7.The last time I said "I love you" was when I put The Mayor to sleep.  Every night we always say, "I'll see you in the morning, and a thousand times tonight!"

If you love filling in the blanks...hop on over to She comes up with these great lists each week and lots of other great posts.

Cheers! Have a great weekend!